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Stronger than death

In the shadows deep and long
We hold mysterious secret gaze,
These crazy precious moments build
Strong foundations to last for always

You are not bad, you are not mean,
It’s simple, beautiful vulnerability
Which brings us both to this hard seam
Of raw dependence, you and me

The fiercest love, forged in raging flame,
Brokenness and beauty roughly bound,
We’ve a good thing here, there is no shame,
Let’s close our ears to the conformity game

Your sweet heaviness, your light brightness
Gently crumble my life’s walls
And in this brilliant messy rightness
New life and growth, adventure calls

If I could pay with any price
Even with my final breath,
You’re worth every sacrifice,
Truth revealed; love’s stronger than death

Double Helix Headed High

Ringlet spirals down your cheek,

Half closed eyelids hide and seek

From and for the love,

For which you were created.

Loose your grip on lies of old,

Slip into the Saviour’s hold,

Bravely let the dance

Mold the truth into your stance.

Unfathomed depths, dip in your heart;

Ripple seen is just the start,

Weight of rushing power

Freeing, washing walls apart

Bridal beauty lies within

Unbridled; He’s extinguished sin,

Skies of light wherein

Potential fiercely soars and sings

Choosing to step onto rock,

Look not back, smash the lock,

You can and will be loved

Now and through eternity!

So let your gaze be lifted to

The one who loves to hear from you,

Praise will be the key;

Outwit deceit of enemy

Your voice was bestowed by the King,

A unique one, distinctive ring,

Lest the stones cry out,

Let the Princess her words bring!

Understanding Covenant

If you can’t be bothered to read a long post, I’ll start with a summary:-

I went on my church weekend away and had a wonderful time and got a clearer idea of what covenant is and why it makes sense that Jesus dying on the cross means we can be forgiven. I think I am learning a lot about my relationship with God and the church’s relationship with Jesus through going out with Pete. End of summary. :]

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This photo was taken while a big group of us went on a walk on our weekend away. It was an utterly beautiful day.

We looked at the truth in the Bible and the significance of the actions and promises of Jesus to our lives. Jesus and I are in a covenant. Because of this, we are ONE, despite also being two. Like marriage; one marriage, two people. Being one with Jesus is the only way it makes sense that when HE died on the cross, MY mistakes were forgiven. This is also why I can be hid with Christ in glory, why I can have, do have, eternal life. So the key is intimacy with Jesus, joining in that covenant that He offers us… becoming one with Him.

I don’t have the eloquence to explain why this was eye opening for me, I think it makes more sense because I feel more involved in the crucifixion now. It’s not another reason for me to feel guilty, it’s what sets me FREE from guilt. :]

Which leads me on to the next bit: I understand this covenant primarily because I think I understand marriage (to an extent). My mam and dad love each other and have made a lifetime commitment. They don’t make sense without each other, and whatever you do to one of them, you therefore do to the other. Because by their marriage they became one. If you hurt my mother, you hurt my father also, and if you are loving to my father, you are loving to my mother also. They’re pretty equal, they have different strengths and they have vowed to stand by each other no matter what; picking each other up when needed.

With Jesus and me, the covenant is different because Jesus is strong and perfect, and I am not. But actually, we do both love each other, and nothing can separate us. Jesus willingly became the sacrifice, for all that I do wrong, and more. He is not begrudging.

Which leads me on to Pete, and how being in a relationship with him is teaching me about God’s love. This bit is more embarrassing to talk about because it doesn’t paint me in a great light, and I also don’t want to come across as though I’m boasting because I have such a great boyfriend. I didn’t earn him, I am blessed by him. I’ll tell a story quickly to illustrate.

On Sunday night after getting back from the church weekend away I had to change the tyre on my bike. I had to leave the house at quarter past six the next day to catch a bus to Stockton and ten to seven for work. At about twenty to seven I got into town (nice and early) only to discover upon arrival that my bike lock WAS NOT ON MY BIKE!! *panic* Options flit in a wobbly way through my head; go to Wilko and buy one? Can’t it’s not open yet. Go home and get it? Don’t have time. Call Sam and Lizi? They won’t know the situation/be fast enough. Leave bike in town and hope? No, it will almost certainly get stolen. Jesus, what do I do? Call Pete. Try not to cry with relief when he answers on second ring. Garble in a shaky voice at top speed. Wait for Pete to BOMB it into town only just woken up. Leave bike and trust Pete to find it and keep it safe. Dash madly for bus. Receive text from Pete to say he has my bike safe and sound. Reflect on irrationally willing nature of Pete towards me.

But do you know what, Pete didn’t want me to try to retrospectively earn his rescue, and he didn’t love me less because he’d cycled so fast he felt sick and asthmatic and he actually said he ENJOYED being there for me at ANY hour of the day. And instead of managing to redeem myself, I went and got all over emotional about something and sobbed down the phone to him a couple on nights later at half past midnight. But instead of being dismissive and begrudging and he sought me out the next day with flowers and chocolate. I have to try to learn to receive this kind of sacrificial and loving behaviour. And obviously my response is that I want to love him back as much as I can. But not out of guilt, out of joy!! And this is exactly what I need to learn in my relationship with Jesus too.

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The better of two ‘Good’s ;]

Two great things: Chocolate and Jesus

Just enjoyed me some PROPERLY delicious and Fairtrade* chocolate. It was REALLY enjoyable. Sadly, once the eating of it was done (altogether too quickly) the luxurious, joyful, deeply satisfying feeling subsided. And I just thought, all the things we love in life, can be really super great. But they just don’t keep us satisfied. This is why today I am boldly proclaiming that Jesus is the best, because He is a wellspring of life within, always offering us more than we can understand. He is ALWAYS enough and MORE. 

AND he doesn’t make me fat or spotty! ;] hahaha.

*Fairtrade chocolate is really truly excellent. My BESTEST LOVELIEST Pete gave me some Green and Black’s which is doubly enjoyable because not only does it taste dreamy, but it helps make dreams come true for people who are being paid a fair wage and having their communities invested in.

In conclusion, I am a fan of:

  • Jesus
  • Chocolate
  • Fairtrade
  • Peter

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Why Pray?

Why Pray?

See  Bobby’s answer by clicking on the link. :] xx

What a friend!

At some point I’ll have to write more about this whole area but for now a quick post about something that went on last week;

Ben, Phillipa, Charlie and I met up at the Monument in the city centre on Wednesday to see what God wanted us to do. When we met we sat at a bench and prayed for a bit and asked God to give us some clues, we then wrote down things which God brought to mind. After that we just asked God to guide us and kept praying as we went. We believe that God can heal people of emotional, physical and spiritual sickness and that He loves people very much, so we were looking for opportunities to pray for people. We offered prayer to quite a few people, a few of whom declined, a lot of people had various needs in their lives though and were quite touched by the fact that God loves them enough to send some young people into the city to look for them and pray for them.

Anyway, let me just share a couple of snippets of how it went. :]

So we offered to pray for a woman who said she was an atheist but when we told her that God loves atheists as well she said we could pray for her spine; so Ben and I did (we split into twos) and when we had prayed she said she had a tingly feeling in the bottom of her spine and in her bottom, and then she asked if we would pray for her to be able to quit smoking too which we did and I am still praying for her by name (Joules) which you can too if you’d like.

Phillipa also had been given a ‘clue’ by God which was simply ‘Butterfly’, well we saw a group of young people hanging out in front of a shop called ‘M Butterfly’ and there was a girl in the group that I kept feeling my heart go out for, so again Ben and I approached the group and said something like ‘Hello, we are Ben and Catie, we’re Christians and we believe God loves you and we’d like to offer to pray for you, is there anything we can pray for you for?’ they looked a bit nervous and giggled a bit and one of the girls said she didn’t believe in God, and so we said to the girl who I’d felt God urging us to talk to that we had particularly felt that God wanted to bless her and her face lit up, her friend tried to drag her away but she said she wanted to stay and told us she was two weeks pregnant and could we pray for that, she was so young to be a mother and looked quite worried about it so I asked if she’d mind me putting a hand on her and prayed with her.

Meanwhile Ben was chatting to a couple of the boys; One was joking around and thought the whole thing pretty ridiculous but the other one of them said that his friend’s hand had been healed before when he’d been prayed for and said he had a sore leg. Ben prayed for him, commanding the pain to go in Jesus’ name and then the boy moved his leg about and was amazed as the pain had completely gone, at which point the other boy thought it would be okay to have his sore knuckles be prayed for, so Ben got the boy who had just been healed to lay hands on him and pray as well and then this second lad said that he had no pain in his knuckles, Ben and I hardly believed it so Ben checked and said we’d not be offended if they did still hurt but the boy said that they didn’t hurt at all anymore! Amazing!!

So basically, be encouraged: Jesus loves you completely and has the power to heal you and your friends and He will meet you where you are at. He’s a really awesome friend to have, too good to miss out on. :] xx

M-Butterfly, Newcastle

New Beginnings

Beginning from now I am going to:

  • Be able to say NO
  • Read my Bible every day
  • Work Hard
  • Rest Hard

I love sunny crisp days and spring. I love the joy and peace of walking in woods with the birth of new flowers. Thank you God.

This is not quite as beautiful as the bluebell wilderness that erupts in spring at home, but it really blessed me.

Crocus Joy in Spring

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